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Dearly Deers,

A quick styling card on some items I threw together in an outfit.

2014-09-28 A

Skin – Glam Affair – Livy – India 07E
Eyes – Ikon – Kaleido Eyes – Leaf
Hair – Tableau Vivant – Writer Hair – Braid – Reds
Hands – Slink – Av Enhancement Elegant 1
Feet – Slink – Av Enhancement High Feet
Nail Polish – ZoZ

Jumper – ColdLogic – Joslin – Snow
Bag – Magic Nook – Parisian Romance Clutch Bag – Yellow
Earrings – Chop Zuey – Topaz 3d
Bracelets – Moondance – Cor De La Bella
Rings – Moondance – Cor De La Bella

PoseSion – Posh 04
PoseSion – Hands 02 for Close Up

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Dearly Deers,

A new appointment is by now an old one.
The old one has to make place for a new, new one.
And that way the story gets another twist.
Just a detour by taking a few steps back.
A few steps back but still in the right direction.

When Monday we went to the gynecologist I was very excited.
I was ready to hear those words: “We will have to direct you to a new clinic that specializes in fertility!”
IVF PGD would start for us with an intake and
Sadly, the news was very different from that.
Turns out that the semen has instead of slow swimmers, NO swimmers according to the gynecologist, so it would be not just that. It in fact would not happen the natural way at all, not even by mistake so to speak.
When I heard those words, it felt as if the world ended however a minute later I found us still sitting there listening to our doctor.

Quite a bit of professional words of which I never heard before were explained to us on how to take our next step into possibly becoming parents. He told us about seeing an Andrologist. Andrologists are urologists who focus entirely on the treatment of conditions affecting male fertility and sexuality, rather than practicing a broader form of urology. Our appointment is in the making for this step.

I am happy things like this exist and the world underneath my feet is back again, now that the sharp edges of the news are a bit softened. There still is hope. Trying to think positive and as Jan told me.. at least we know what is the matter, so its possible to look for solutions in a direct way.
As always, will keep you updated!

L’amour et lumière,

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Dearly Deers,

We have had our appointment the other day with the genetics research clinic and there has been explained a lot.
A whole lot.

I will try and explain this in easy words, but all in all, since English is not my first language, I may make mistakes. Also, this is explained to me by professional people who know what they are talking about, I am passing it on to you, in “kid’s language”, since I obviously am not the professional.
To make it easier to understand, I played with a picture though….


On the picture is shown an example of my chromosomes.
Imagine the color blue to be my 7 Chromosome and the color red my 9.
In the first case (A), you see a blue and red chromosome non mixed, the red has its pieces as well as blue has its own pieces. This is “normal” and nothing will occur when passing these on to your children.

The second case (B), the red and blue chromosomes have been mixed, however, they both have the exact same count of pieces like the non mixed one has. When you carry these chromosomes, nothing is the matter for my own health. The problem with this is that I have a very large chance of having a miscarriage.

The third case (C), that is a problem. As you notice, there is “too much” red pieces, and a shortage of blue pieces. Which means, there is a loss of genetic information. Oftentimes, this is a miscarriage and in small cases a child which is disabled.

Myself I have the A and B cases.
It could mean that if i get pregnant, there will be no problem whatsoever, I can get pregnant and give birth to a perfect healthy child. However, when I pass along either too much red or too much blue pieces so to speak, there is the problem of it being a miscarriage. Officially i cannot say this, since it DOES happen that it won’t be a miscarriage but then this child will have disabilities, such as Down syndrome.

I hope this makes a bit of sense to you on my situation.

What’s next?
Monday the 13th we will have an appointment with our gynecologist to talk about the possibilities now that I know about my genetic problem and all test results are in.
A possibility is IVF-PGD which is a procedure used in conjunction with in-vitro fertilization to screen for specific genetic or chromosomal abnormalities before transferring the fertilized eggs into the mother. The technician removes one or two cells about three days after fertilization, then examines the chromosomes for obvious abnormalities. At this moment, it seems to be the most logic option, considering my age, my medication, and Jan’s own test results.

Will keep you in the loop!

L’Amour et Lumière,